It has been a while since my last blog, 4 months to be exact. Whereas it has been a busy 4 months I have just not found the time to post. Tonight's event is so important, I had to find the time to document it.
As we prayed over our children tonight and tucked them into bed, a huge chapter ended in my life. I knew it was coming, I am prepared for it's arrival but the realization of it is a lot to take in. My son starts school tomorrow. K-4. Tomorrow morning he will put on his khaki pants and navy shirt with his orange and navy Planes themed shoes. I will pack a peanut butter and jelly sandwich and place it neatly in his navy lunch box. We will strap on his backpack and out the door he will go and just like that, my days of having a baby at home will be over. Done. Door closed. Chapter over.
I have such mixed emotions about this blessed event that is taking place and I find myself at loss on how to handle it. If you have read my blog at all you know that the baby stage has been a difficult one for me. That in mind, there have been so many good times with my kids. Our daughter began school 2 years ago so tomorrow marks her 3rd year in school as she begins 1st grade. Our son has been home with me while attending a mother's day out every now and then. I am so confident that he will do great and is ready for this chapter but saying goodbye to those days are proving more difficult than I thought. Don't get me wrong, I am looking forward to working more and being able to do other things that I know God has called me to. I am looking forward to completing tasks that have been ongoing for years now. Those projects that have been interrupted by, "Mommy.... I need you".
On the other hand, those, "Mommy... I need you" moments are some of the most precious moments of my life. His little voice. Snuggling to Paw Patrol. My errand buddy. Wow. Where did it go? Does life really go this fast? My time with babies at home is officially over. It is with great expectations that I take on the role of Home Room Mom. That's right. Home Room Mom.
All of life seems to be trading one role for another. It appears that happiness in life comes when one is able to seamlessly transition into the next role. No matter how badly we want it, the option to stay in any single chapter is not there. We must move on. We must find out what the next chapter requires of us and give ourselves completely to that. So, tonight I say good bye to the woman who was stay at home mom with babies in the house and I welcome the new woman who is... well... I'm not quite sure. I guess we will just have to wait and see, won't we? Looks like my children won't be the only one's learning this year.
